"O Rly"

Surprise us because this is the best time it can happen. For all we know things were happening so fast that we are crippling inside. It's funny how something that feels so right is not what they should be but this is life right, it's real. 

There is no hidden meaning in the words I write because I run out of words and a part of me, not missing, but changed along with loss. We can't ask questions on why they all don't seem to work because they are decisions we both made at a price. But really, why do we always make decisions that tear us apart, just from about everything that makes us feel familiar?

You are supposed to be here, to see the leaves fall, perform the daily family guy ritual, and I'm supposed to fall asleep while we watch historical movies. You are supposed to be here, to listen to my cries when life's being merciless, to complain about the flies during summer and curse during winter. You are supposed to be here, drinking beer and smoking with me and questioning what we want in our lives, trying to find a new life here. You are suppose to be here, laughing together not because of our ambition but simply because we have each other. You are supposed to be here, not to fall in love with me but just to wake up and be happy we can hold each other, kiss in the rain, dance to our feet and be silly. We are supposed to doubt together, and find our way still.

Maybe knowing does help, because it gives you time to say our goodbyes. And no, goodbyes don't happen at the point where it's gone, it's said with bits and pieces and it's never enough. Frankly, you don't really mean it anyway. Stop kidding with yourself.

It's going to be hard to beat. Everything about it, is. The laughter, the beers, the dance, the jokes, the food, the going-missing, the cold, the goin-to-hell snapping, the screw-you curse, the sarcasm, the cuddling, the fall, the winter, the spring, the summer, the snowballs, the lame jokes, the conversation, and the list will never end.

God doesn't have a good sense of humor, we of all people know that. But this one really got us.