Naive

The future shall not take our present. For tomorrow may surprise us both. For my heart chooses to not give up hope and I will not allow the present stolen. The present is beyond what I have hoped for, I dared not imagine. So hopeful I shall stay, for I have been blessed and remain grateful I shall be. 

I saw the ring you gave to me, and I see the most beautiful gift, most valuable, and i thought, you are the hope in my hopeful (maybe stepping on thin lines with stupidity) naive heart. I feel you every minute of my days, how can I wear you more than I do now? You, are what my joyful heart wishes. My heart dances with you, in the present. 

Your are my joy and sorrow. So I look forward to tomorrow, for life is bigger than us, but love, you are such a big part of life, you are what sustain a blissful life. 

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Love and Pain Having Coffee

Today, love and pain came to visit. Love was feeling strong, transparent on its vulnerability, unapologetic, for it was beyond chatters of the world. Pain, however, decided that maybe, instead of avoiding love, it would pay a short visit, leave its footprint.

They sat on a coffee table and reminisce the times when they would coexist, like now, for the heart is big enough for them both. The heart doesnt always have one without the other. Looking back at the footsteps, they coexist more than they are apart.

Love talked about the sunrise, the joy in those beautiful smiles, the sound of laughter it radiates rays of happiness. But more than that, they both talk about the times when they both decided to stay strong together and guard the gate against hate and bitterness, when these two beings would hug and strengthen in the name of both love and pain, irrationally choose to love without opening the gate to the outside world. They both talk about how silly these two beings are, but also how awake they are in living.

They both know that love tends to always win, but they also know that this is not a battle. Its a cobweb and the beauty of the tangles and the mess is what add colours to the repeatitiveness of the hours. They decided to lay together tonight, love and pain, so that loneliness don't come knocking.

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Wonders & Wander

I hope you know that I would do anything in my power to make you happy, to protect you and to comfort you, above all else. I hope to death that you, of all people, see it, because none in the past saw it when it mattered. 

I know that what we have is a rare precious gem. I just wish that you see where we both stand, and its ok if you are not on the same page, as long as you see where I am, because I see where you are and I am at peace.  

You said you see through me, you do.. and I am, an open book to you. I am grateful that I am.. but I feel that you dont let me in sometimes.. maybe I dont understand you enough..I cant help but wonder, did you at least open the door into your mind as you swim through the wonders of your sea or is this you protecting me ?  

I have learnt to love you with an open heart, and I hope you see that this is a safe haven to be open. Its like when you run and your mind wanders, do you trust me in loving you ? 

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Keeper

Reminisce the days when a song brought a smile 

Do you remember the song? 

I bet you did, not only the song but also the feeling it triggers, be it childhood laughter, play in the rain or utmost happiness 

To me some songs reminded me of evening dances with you

Or the time when i rode on the tram, in the rain 

The beauty of isolation

A song which reminded me of friendship

I lost someone today 

Not close, but one who I feel connected to 

I grew up with his songs

My heartbreak and romance, his voice is a journey back

It keeps me grounded

When we are isolated for a global epidemic

Whilst the world unites under the same goal

When our time is up - time is up

But hey, dont we forget life, how we react is in our control 

That it is still my choice, to laugh

To love with an open heart 

To feel grateful for what we used to see as "normal" or default position

That your breath makes me grateful 

The fact that we are in the same space and time 

Do you see how blessed we are in love ? 

Do the math, numbers will tell you the possibility of finding the one at the right time (if you believe so) is close to impossible

Isnt this a time which calls for a grateful smile ?

Because the few loved ones you have are in the same space and time, that i can still say, i love you, that you make me happy and that you are beautiful 

I feel grateful

In the midst of these challenging times, there is even more clarity

For those who are by your side, are the keepers. 

Picture is designed by Mita, IG acc @mitas_world15 

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Reality Slap

I understand the logic
But being hopeful is what keeps one alive
Depriving someone of hope is fair
The "right" kiddo but hurtful nevertheless 

Its a tight reality slap
It keeps one grounded
Its a wake up call of where you stand
That love isn't enough

Doesnt it amuse you ?
What life brings
How many of us stick it out because of principles, ours' or others'
At the expense of hurting ourselves

Others, decide that they can't be together
For the same reasons, principles, nevertheless
How much do we value principles ?
It defines who you are you say, but does it if you give up one love for another ? Im sure it does, but again, this keeps me grounded.

Thank you for lifting me up
I see you, who you are.
Its a gap I, and the circumstance, will never bridge
And if one day I do, then maybe i'll understand love is enough. 

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Whats Ours

Will we become moments and mere memories, sometimes I wonder.
We both know certain moments define highlights of our lives and I know, that you are defining moments of how life has been and will be.

But I am afraid.. that we would be memories, a phase in life, so beautiful its a lifelong mark - from where we stand in the future, looking back separately.

It feels so strong, so loving, so trusting that it is dreamy. Does this exist in life ?

Seeing you in me is the warmth which spoons me in nights when we are apart
Like a cup of my favourite ginger lemongrass tea with honey
You sooth me, ease my cares
You are my smile before i close my eyes and my first smile of the day

As long as we have each other, nothing is ever big
I remember the bible teaches me that as a kid
That nothing is bigger than God
And that God is love
You, we are our shelter for we are love

We danced, sang and our words often creep into dawn
My thoughts of us is the autumn leaves
Its the sun in spring
The smell of grass in rain

With our hands we hold our hearts
We can no longer return
For what used to be yours and mine have become ours
Its scary but I wouldnt give it up for anything

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