On Wanting Something

When you wanted something so small yet so badly you crave for it but everything else doesn’t let you, you drown yourself in a sea of sorrow so much so that the object no longer matter. By then, even if you have it by force, it doesn’t seem as exciting as before because it has already been tainted by too much pressure, too much effort spent on getting it yet still against everything that doesn’t allow you to have it. So for once, how nice can it be if one can look the other way, look the other door once this one has closed? Because the faster one does that, the faster one bounces up and regains the life suppressed by sorrow, pain and emptiness.

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Feeling Romantic

My sweet love, my dear

In the midst of this hectic life

You have fulfilled me

Would you love me true

When my heart is blue

Hug me tight and protect

I don’t care about the future

Only a love that’s sincere

My dear, today, is the present

Touch me, caress me

Like soft ripples upon my skin

You have brought me peace

My sweet love, my dear

In the midst of this hectic life

This, is heavenly earth

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Have it Said

Spit it out with words dear, I need to know

But please don’t throw it to me

I was pushed to the corner, unable to move

The phone rang and I spoke for you

Amongst those whom I love,

You should know it’s difficult, for I cannot choose.

These, are a part of me

I need you to be great with them

Simply because it makes me happy

So think with me, dear

For two of any is stronger than one

Try to speak your mind, bring me along

I need you to know

There are things that I cannot apologize for

But there is none I cannot fix

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Chasing Dreams

Chasing dreams.

It’s odd how it sounds distant in the future when sometimes it’s a desire to feel the past once again. It’s what you need before you settle in your life. Because only then your soul can rest and your heart feels at peace.

Meet the people you need; the old schoolmates, the family who has taken of you when you first face foreign environment, visit the dog you’ve always missed and feel the familiarity once again in your life. Go on, take a walk in the garden during fall, when the leaves are yellow and the wind is soft. Enjoy a cupa coffee outdoor where you can warm your hand around the paper cup due to the chilling wind. Have a road trip somewhere just for the exquisite views and new excitement. Have a drink at a lounge with a friend, perhaps with a couple of cigarettes, just talking about everything that has happened in the past years.

You do realize that things have changed, oh yea they do indeed. Even then, you still miss it, badly. So even if the things that used to be there aren’t anymore, that’s fine, because you just need to go back there, be there, taste the wind and feel the difference between the past and the present.

So my dear, fear not because its what I need to do not only to rest my mind, but also to make me realize that I have a life here with you.

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